Did it pay off? Did the chocolate biscuits win?

So as per my last post where I said I was back on it. The scales on Saturday was another 2lb off which I was happy with. My head was in the game last week.

This week has started with a slightly different approach. I am going to do a different blog post on it but this weekend I took part in an annual event where approx 70 of us drove vintage tractors 20+ miles to raise money for the air ambulance. Last year we raised nearly £7000.00. It is a really important day to me. And depends on my health as to if I can do it every year.

However with it this year came a food choice that I needed to make. I knew I wasn’t going to be home from Saturday lunch time. I knew that Saturday evening the food would be out of my control and have syns in. I also knew that on Sunday it would be a very long tiring sore day with a bacon roll in the morning and bbq for lunch. I said to my SlimmingWorld group I knew it wouldn’t be SW friendly. I knew it wasn’t going to be practical to try and take something with me. So I made the choice to be off plan this weekend. I said I would do a couple of SP days(half speed foods (veg/most fruits) and half protein. Normal syns. Normal health extra A (calcium) and 2 Health Extra Bs (cereal, bread, fibre)to boost the remainder of the week. I made that decision and if it affects my scale results on Saturday. So be it.

Monday morning I let myself down. I stayed at my parents over the weekend and ended up staying Sunday night. Monday morning where I had originally said I would be back on plan… I got tempted with chocolate biscuits… I caved in. The chocolate biscuits won. But you all know it wasn’t just one chocolate biscuits. 😳It may have been tiredness levels but I wasn’t strong enough. I did however have and SP lunch and jacket potato for dinner. So not to bad.

So this week I am on it for the rest of the week and hopefully not damage the result too much by being weak and caving and being off plan.

Damnit. Chocolate Biscuits 1-0. You win this time…(and probably next time)

Back on it and back on it strong

Well. I’ve been back on plan for a few weeks. I was really down over the amount that I’d put back on between my birthday, Christmas and then my operation. I put over a stone on. Taking my 2 stone weight loss to just under a stone. I was unhappy with how I looked and the bumps that were appearing under tops or the muffin top hanging over trousers. So, as soon as it was back in my control I was on it.

Initially I lost 3lb and then 3.5lb which I was really happy about. I had a 1lb gain and I wasn’t too happy but accepted it. I then made the decision to do a Couple of SP days the following week and hit 2.5lb. Back on it. However knowing I was back on it – and the reason for the SP days is because I self sabotaged at the start of the week by eating most of a bag of little bite size daim bars. They are just little bite size chocolate goodness that are so moreish I couldn’t stop at one. I knew I was back on it and I wanted to be back on it and shift the weight I’d put back on however I had a decision to make and I chose the one that really wouldn’t help my weight loss. I made up for it with a couple of SP days.

SP days are basically half protein (p) and half speed food (s) designed to boost weight loss You have your normal syns and HeA but you can have 2 HeBs. So it was do-able and I know that helped with the 2.5lb. So this week. I haven’t self sabotaged and have still tried to do a couple of SP days so let’s see what the scales say tomorrow. (Maybe my insane stress levels will have helped)

I had the power to make some choices and at Times I’ve not made very good ones. However at other times I have. We are all capable of making choices that we need to or should make. But we are also capable of making the wrong choices – like me and the daim bars. I shouldn’t have picked them up! Sometimes we self sabotage. Sometimes we don’t hold out strong.

Ask yourself: what is it you want more? You can make the good choice.

Where the scales my friend…

Helloo 🙂

So, Saturday morning. Off I went. As I handed my book over I said to the lady “it will be a gain I’m sure” I stepped on the scales to see what the damage was. 1.5lb off! Well! I was pretty happy. But I think my body works behind by a week. Like Saturday last week was a 3lb gain  but I had been good the whole of the week leading up and had lots of speed food (to non SW peeps – that basically food that is supposed to boost your weight loss – mostly veg and most fruits) and this week Pizza was involved and I hadn’t had loads of speed food. So who knows! I couldn’t stay for group this week but I was happy with the number.

Through this blog and my SW journal that I bought this week I am determined to re-gain focus. By reporting here (even if no one reads) and keeping a log. I need to make the good choices.

So today. After work. I am going to try and do some WII Fit dependent on my back as it is very twitchy today. But I will try. On wards and up wards. Happy Monday Guys. New week, new decisions, new choices.

 

Knowing what I should do…

Knowing what I should do….Versus what I did do…

So, yesterday after work… I didn’t jump on the Wii-Fit. I didn’t go for a walk and I didn’t go swimming. So. A big fat zero for body magic. I worked from home, finished work and all my energy ran away. I’d been extremely tired all day and sore and achey but I still held on to the thought of doing something but I caved at the last hurdle. I couldn’t do it. So instead. I had porridge and the a bowl of fruit, had a shower and went to bed early….although. Still didn’t sleep until 2.30am *sigh*.

So there I was. A choice- should I do what is good for me and going towards my goal for the week or chill out and rest. Some may say I made the wrong choice. Was I weak, un-focused, un-determined? OR maybe my body obviously needed to stop. A choice. It could have been the wrong one.

I finished the day on no body magic. And 14/15 syns. So still within limits.

Tonight after work has been similar.  My pain levels have been too high to consider body magic. However I will be cooking and building in some speed food, so at least that is something. I will make up for the body magic tomorrow with 2 x 15 minute walks at least.

Right, off I go. Dinner to make.

Working from Home – has gotten me lazy.

Due to medical conditions I work from home (WFH) 2 or 3 times a week. This saves me having to travel and get shaken about, it keeps me safer if I am bad – to stop me falling. WFH has it’s pro’s and con’s.

Pros:

• I don’t have to go out in the cold.
• I can get up later
• It’s comfier
• Finish work and I am home already

Cons:

• Same 4 walls.
• Can get lonely
• can get boring
• I am not up and moving around as much – LAZY.

So, my Slimming world journey so far has pretty much all been without exercise – or very little at that. I went through a chronic pain rehabilitation program at the hospital in the summer and I learnt so much about so may different things. Especially how exercise and movement can help with chronic pain. To start with I was so on this plan and I created a plan at work for good days and bad days. Now, Since we moved house – (also summer) – my trip to work takes longer and I WFH more. Now – this has meant that I am not as active as  I could be and I am so keen to get back going with this for my mental and physical well being. This should also help me with my weight loss. So this week is the starting point. I have committed to it now with the group. 2 or 3 x wii fit sessions if nothing else and these on the days I am at home.

Today is day 1 of WFH since that idea. I am on it. It is a choice and a decision I made for me. I clock off at 6pm. The Wii Fit is going straight on. Let’s do this! I’ve put it here as well now. So I have to.